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What Jin lost by ~joeyweelerslover:iconjoeyweelerslover:

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“Jin… put it on!” she said poking my ribs playfully.
I turn to look
No one is around, yet I blush as I put on her beanie.
”See it doesn’t look bad. Awe Kawaii, neh?” she tells me giving me a smile.
“I’m taking it off!” I say not willing to blush even more.
“No! Let’s take pictures,” she said pouting and showing me her camera.
I just stand there with the beanie off staring at her.
“For memories…” She adds.
“Fine…” I mumble replacing the beanie as a sign of surrender.
“Awe…Arigato” she said bowing slightly.
I just nod stupidly.
“Say… cheese!” I hear her yell as we pose.
The flash goes off.

“I hope I’m not too late.” I think turning a corner as the rain keeps poring down. As I run I hear a loud crack of thunder behind me.

“Ow…” I yelp as I feel the stabbing pain on my eyebrow.
“I’m almost done with the stitches…stop being a baby” she said as I stare up at her.
“I’m not a baby…I’m a man” I reply sticking out my tongue.
“Well…man. Next time you want to walk with your eyes closed make sure there isn’t a sharp ledge in front of you…” she teases as she cuts the excess wire.
I laugh.
She smiles and put a band-aid on the stitches.
“…ow” I say quietly.
She leans toward me and kisses my stitches.
“Happy?” she asks with a sweet smile.
“Thank you Kim Yoa Bien,” I say smiling back.

I keep running up the street, feeling my chest about to burst. “I have to get there…”I think ignoring the stabbing pain.

“Jin…look at the stars!” Kim exclaims happily.
I look.
“Beautiful…”I hear her mumble.
I look down and I stare at the lake, playing with the grass.
“It’s nice out huh…” I say not taking my eyes off the glittering water.
“Uh…huh” she mumbles.
“What do you want to be when you grow up, Jin?” she asks breaking the silence.
“I want to be a song writer…” I reply looking at her.
“I want to be a ballerina…” she said looking at me.
“You’re already a ballerina,” I say gazing at her.
“No…I want to be a professional,” she said her eyes lighting up.
I just stare at her as she gazes at the stars.
“Well…since you want to be a ballerina and I want to be a song writer…why don’t we reach our dreams together?” I ask shyly.
She turns and smiles.
“Ok…but we’ll go to America together…and once I’m a Ballerina and you’re a famous song writer…our dream will be fulfilled” Kim says smiling.
I move a little closer.
“This will be a great adventure, neh?” I hear her say as I move even closer.
“But…promise me one thing…”she says
“Promise me that you’ll stop calling me Kim Yao Bien and just Kim…”She continues.
“Jin why are you so quite?” she said turning to look at me.
I go in for the kiss.
She hesitates but gives in.
She pulls away slowly.
“Kim…I love you!” I mumble to her.
“Jin…I’ve loved you ever since I was five” Kim admits as she blushes.
And with that I smile.

I trip on the slippery street. I hear thunder boom behind me as I lay on the cold cement. “Damn it!!!” I yell in anger as I pound my fist on the cement.

“Jin…” Kim says coming in.
She comes in sadly as she takes place next to me.
“Nani?” I ask worried.
“I have to go to America…” she mumbles.
“ I know…were both going in four months” I say staring at the internal sadness in her eyes
“No…” she shakes her head, fighting back tears.
“I have to go…in two months” she cries falling into my arms.
I sit there stoking her hair as she sobs.
“It’s ok…I’ll be there in two months.” I reassure her.
She looks at me, tears falling.
“You’ll just have to wait for two months…and then we’ll come back in three years” I tell her wiping her tears.
She nods her head.
“What if you can’t come?” she asks.
“I can’t live without you” she adds putting her hand on my cheek
I put my hand over hers.
“Just wait for me…and I’ll come.” I tell her with a smile
“You promise?” she asks
“Yes…I promise.” I reassure her
And with that I kiss her

“I promised…I would never hurt you…” I think as I get off the ground. I painfully look down and I see my knee bleeding. I ignore it and I start running again.

“Let’s have some fun Jin,” she said looking at me with an evil smirk.
I just look at her.
“Jin…lets go to my room…and have a lil’ fun,” she repeats herself again unbuttoning my shirt
I just give her a nervous smile
“Miko…I don’t think-”I start to mumble as she starts nibbling my neck.
“Jin…just forget about the past and live in the present,” she said looking up at me.
“But I promised I would go…”I think.
“It’s been a year…she moved on already. Do the same.” I hear Miko say.
I watch her get up slowly.
“I can’t,” I think
“C’mon…you love me now.” She said grabbing my hand.
I hesitate
She licks her lips and smiles evilly
“Good-bye Kim” I think as I get up
I follow Miko to her room

I try to see though the blur of water. I rub my eyes and I see her house. “Just a few more blocks” I think picking up speed.

“Kim you should have stayed,” I say leaning on the rail.
“Stayed? Jin I waited for two years…you never came!” she said firmly
I just turn to stare at her
“Kim you were never there and you still didn’t get it?” I ask coldly.
“Jin…I love you!” she cries out
I turn around
“Do you love me?” she asks as I hear her footsteps
I just smirk at that, trying to let her go
“Miko’s is using you. Your just her own little entertainment…” I hear her say as she touches my shoulder
I turn to look at her
I see tears forming in her eyes
“Do you still love me?” she asks
I’m hesitant
“Kim…” I mumble
“Answer me!” Kim yells
I just stare at her not able to answer
Tears roll down her cheeks
I feel my heartache
“…yes” I think closing my eyes
I take a deep breath
When I am about to answer her question she kisses me
I stand there
She slowly steps back
“I don’t love you anymore” I mumble loud enough for her to hear
“What?” she asks confused
“Kim Yoa Bien…I don’t love you!” I say sternly
“What we had is gone and I want you out of my life “ I yell my temper rising
My heartaches
I see her heart break and shatter though her eyes
She falls to the floor sobbing
I just stand over her
“I waited…I waited for so long…just to be with you…”I hear her mumble through her sobbing
“I can’t live without you, Jin. You were my first love. My only love” She said as she looked up
I start to walk
I feel her grab my hand
“She’s going to rip your heart out and throw it in your face Jin. Then you’ll know who loved you!” she said as I look at her tear stained face
I jerk my hand away rudely
“C’mon Miko…”I say grabbing Miko’s arm
“Get over it…” I add coldly
“You’re doing it to me!” I hear her scream as I walk off
Not looking back
“Kim I’m sorry I lied! I’m sorry!” I mumble as I keep running almost there.

“Jin?” Miko said as she kisses me.
I kiss her back.
I just lay there in bed
“Baby…it’s over!” she said sitting up.
“What?” I say confused
“It was fun…but-“ Miko said sitting up facing her back toward me.
“Why?” I ask sitting up and watching her but on her bra
“I got tired…I mean playing with the same toy gets boring after a while” she says getting up.
“Toy? I was just your boy toy?!” I ask feeling my heartache
She just shrugs as she slips on her skirt.
“So I was just a game to you?” I ask
She shrugs again
“Just a game to could come and have your way whenever you want!!” I yell at her, tears starting to form
She just stays silent
“Did you love me?” I ask shyly
Miko seems to giggle at that as tears start to fall
“Awe…Jin you didn’t believe that did you?” she asks giggling
I just drop my head down, too ashamed to look up
“Jin I thought you knew? I mean Kim did tell you. She tried to stop you” Miko said buttoning her blouse
I look up, tears falling
“Now…now. Don’t cry, “ she said in a mocking way as she grabs her shoes
I just glare at her
“When your bored…you where to find me “ she adds leaning toward me
Tears keep falling though my sobbing
Miko gives me a kiss
A kiss I once found so sweet, but now so bitter
The kiss I call the kiss of death

“Kim I’m sorry…” I whisper, running. Just running.

I hear a ring
I turn and I look at my phone
“Kim Yoa Bien” the caller I.D reads
I just put it down too ashamed to answer
I just stare at the wall wishing
Wishing I never met Miko
Wishing I went to America
Wishing I never hurt Kim
The ringing goes silent
I get up and I throw myself on my bed
I close my eyes hoping I would dream
Or just never wake up
Tears start to fall
The sobbing starts again
I still have the pain Miko left over a week ago
The pain I gave Kim a month ago
I wake up ten minutes later startled
I check my phone
I go to my voice mail

“Kim I’m almost there “I say to myself. “Just wait for me” I plead.

“Jin. It’s me, Kim Yoa Bien. How’s Miko doing?
I guess you’re not taking calls, neh?
Well…it’s ok. I hope you get this after anyways.
I just wanted to say goodbye.
I was holding everything in my arms and I wanted to reach for something I couldn’t have. I’m letting it go.
Everything.
My dreams…you...and my life.
I’m ready to say goodbye to you and let our love finally die.
Now there is no use on living life.
So goodbye Jin and I hope everything goes well between you and Miko.”
I stand there hearing the message again.
I hear it about three more times.
Suddenly it hits me and I drop the phone.
“She’s going to kill her self….” I think.
I run out of the house not caring if it’s raining.

I rush through the stairs and I start to pound on the door. “Kim!!! Kim!!!” I yell over the roar of the thunder. I back way and I look up toward her window. The light is on. “Kim! It’s me! Jin!” I yell. Nothing. I look at the door. I kick it as hard as I can. The door falls down like a weightless feather. I rush inside and I head up stairs. I hear the loud pounding of my feet slaming on the wooden floor as I notice I’m holding my breath. I keep running up and the light gose out. As I reach her door I stop and catch my breath. As I walk toward the door memories start to rush though my mind. I grab the door knob and then thuder starts to roar as a sign of warning.

I open the door and my eyes adjust to the darkness. "...Jin. Don't you know how to knock?" Kims voice plays in my head. I slowly walk feeling cold as I look around. "Kim?" I call my voice harsh and quiet. I spot the windows open and rain coming through but no sign of her.
A blinding flash of lighting lighs the room. I suddenly see piles of pictures spread out on the bed and on the floor. I pick some of them off the floor and I look at them. There pictures of me and Kim but there covered in some dark subtance. I look up and I see someone sitting infornt of the open window. "Kim?" I call. "Jin...." she replies looking up.  At the pit of my stomach I feel a strong sence of fear being born as I walk toward her. As I walk I step on something hard as I look down. Suddenly everythig gose into slow motion as I pick up whatever is on the floor.

As my fingers touch the floor I feel the cold and wet blade tease my sences. I pick it up and it's a nife. I let it drop as I study my hand with blood. Human blood. "Jin....what are you going here?" I hear Kim whisper. "Kim...what did you do?" I ask sternly the fear in me getting stronger. She dosen't reply but slowly gets up. "Tell me you didn't!" my voice choked up. "I....I..." she manages to get out as she takes a few steps toward me, but falls. I catch her and I feel her unbareable cold and wet. I slightly pull her away and like a comand lighting strikes. I see her arms and cloths compeletly coverd in blood. I hold her close as I reach for my phone. As faith has it....I don't have it. I look around and I spot her phone in the bed and I grab it. As I dail for the police I hear and feel her cough. I look at her as I talk on the phone. Her eyes meet mine and their blank. Like never ending tunnels. I as I am giving them the addrees, Kim mumers out "I'm not gonna make it....". I hang up and I say, "No kim...you are.". "NO I'M NOT!" she yells at me. I just fall to my knees, letting  the fear take over.

I feel the warmth of my tears stream down my cheeks. "Why?" I ask. "I...told you couldn't live with out you...." she replys as the blood keeps pouring out. I try my best to contain it. "You have a lot to live for to just end it like this..." I tell her. "God your so stupid!" I yell hugging her. "Jin...I love you." she saids tears falling her pale cold cheeks. I pull away and she put her hand on my cheek. As I felt her cold hand I knew the reaper was goning to take her way from me. "I love you....I never stoped loving you." I tell her.Her eyes fill up with life "I can never forgive myself for hurting you. I lost once and I don want to lose you twice..." "Jin....I forgive you..."she saids. I suddenly hear her heart beat in my head. Like a sign of a count down. "Plese don't go," I say. "Won't you please stay with me? I could be all you need...." I plead hoping that those words would heal her wound. I kiss her. I kiss the cold lips hoping they would get warm. Hopeing that with my kiss I would keep her alive. Just hopeing. Praying. As I pull away ahe looks at me and smiles. I hear the sirens of the police. I look up and then I look at her. I feel a stab of pain and unbarable sorrow. I hold her close hopeing it would go away.

God must have not heard my pleading, but let the reaper take her away. With her last breath. Her last words. Kiss. God lets her die in my arms.
©2006-2010 ~joeyweelerslover
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Here it is. ALL complete. Sorry about the spelling errors and grammer. I'm too lazy to check it and it's pretty long. This is mostly flahbacks and stuff. Hope you enjoy.

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~mizuka-takiko Jul 23, 2006, 7:22:33 PM
It's so sad! ;_; It really sucks that its not like a short manga. Can I draw this as a short manga? >.<

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~mizuka-takiko Jul 24, 2006, 1:56:14 AM
If I can then I'd like to know what they look like and how old they are in each memory. Detail about the settings would be nice and if you have anything else specific, tell me. ^^;

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~joeyweelerslover Jul 25, 2006, 12:08:36 PM
okie dokie. I was gonna so that but I was tooooooo LaZy T.T I'll send you a note later ok? ok!

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"People have hope because they cannot see death standing behind them" -Bleach
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~mizuka-takiko Jul 25, 2006, 8:03:07 PM
Okay. ^^ But I wanna try do it all before Monday next week to see if I can finish in that time.

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By the way, you just lost.
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~joeyweelerslover Jul 28, 2006, 4:04:54 PM
.....I see.

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"People have hope because they cannot see death standing behind them" -Bleach
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~MasterofRPGs Jul 29, 2006, 5:54:00 PM
Dude, this is so sad. It reminds me of my life...but everything reminds me of my lifeT_T Anyway, this is really good. Hell, I didn't even know you could speak English correctly, let alone write this well. G'job!^_^

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omfg. Euh. Life sucks. You know what?

Let's party.

Avec Antoine, sans les bitches, sur les tables, sous les rooves flambées, dans un disco-tèch.
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~joeyweelerslover Jul 30, 2006, 1:50:53 PM
lol yeah.....but let i remind you....i tend to correct myself sometimes. lol yeah....but this story was mostly written after my breakup and it came from the heart. So I'm glad it came out right. Plus I'm superized....I mean I did have Miss Trac


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Oh my god....Its Miss Trac *gosedown*

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"People have hope because they cannot see death standing behind them" -Bleach
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~MasterofRPGs Jul 30, 2006, 10:16:15 PM
hahah, AAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe Don't bring up she who must not be named!!!!!! *shudders*...................*beginstoconvulse*................*hasaseisure*...............oh maih gawed 8/

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omfg. Euh. Life sucks. You know what?

Let's party.

Avec Antoine, sans les bitches, sur les tables, sous les rooves flambées, dans un disco-tèch.
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~joeyweelerslover Aug 2, 2006, 8:29:40 PM
rotflmao.....ok.... ok I don want you to die on me.

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"People have hope because they cannot see death standing behind them" -Bleach
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